A Life Taken too Soon: the Story of Amanda Todd

“I’m struggling to stay in this world, because everything just touches me so deeply. I’m not doing this for attention. I’m doing this to be an inspiration and to show that I can be strong. I did things to myself to make pain go away, because I’d rather hurt myself then someone else. Haters are haters but please don’t hate, although im sure I’ll get them.
I hope I can show you guys that everyone has a story, and everyones future will be bright one day, you just gotta pull through.
I’m still here aren’t I?” -Amanda Todd, September 7, 2012

Imagine feeling alone, betrayed and constantly afraid. This was an everyday occurrence for Amanda Todd.

In 7th grade, after meeting new people online who told her how beautiful she was, she made the mistake of giving in to someone’s repeated requests for a topless photo of herself. That one photo haunted her from school to school, from city to city, and online. Amanda found out the way I did that sharing pictures online means that they are up there forever. She was teased, bullied, threatened, and even beaten up by the people she had to face everyday.

More than anything, she was alone. Alone with her fears and haunting thoughts. Amanda experimented with drugs and alcohol to ease her pain. She turned to physical pain, cutting herself when the bullying worsened and her depression escalated. When a girl punched her in front of the whole school, ridiculing her, telling her that nobody cared about her, she went home and drank bleach in an attempt to end her own suffering. She was saved at the hospital, but her tormenters spared no opportunity to ridicule her for it.

On October 10, 2012 Amanda Todd committed suicide.

I chose to blog today about Amanda because today marks the one-year anniversary of her death. And today we get to celebrate the life of a beautiful young girl that we lost all too soon. If there is one thing you take away from her tragic story, please remember that your words are powerful and sometimes we can underestimate how much they mean. Treat the people around you with respect.

Nobody deserves what Amanda went through. I wish I had known her. I wish I had one day with her to help her and to let her know that she wasn’t alone. I wish I could tell her that she’s my hero and that she is the reason that I’ve stayed strong and kept fighting for justice.

Though we can’t bring her back to life, I choose to remember her…rest in peace, Amanda.

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.” –Mahatma Gandhi

New York Lawmakers Introduce Legislation to Criminalize Revenge Porn

It is refreshing to hear someone talk about revenge porn like it’s a crime. To hear people acknowledge that nobody deserves to be harassed and violated is something many victims have been waiting years for.

It is even more exciting to hear those sentiments coming from lawmakers like Assemblyman Edward C. Braunstein, who stated, “Disseminating sexual explicit images that were shared with an expectation of privacy can cause lasting damage to victims and should be a crime.”

Fresh on the heels of Sen. Anthony Cannella’s victory against revenge porn in California, Assemblyman Braunstein and Sen. Joseph A. Griffo of New York announced Thursday that they are introducing new legislation criminalizing revenge porn.

“This so-called phenomena of ‘cyber-revenge,’ is a tawdry form of exploitation. From what we know, the majority of its victims are women who don’t know that their images and likenesses [have] been bartered and sold over the Internet,” said Sen. Griffo. “Currently, these victims have limited options when their pictures taken with their consent, were posted online.”

The legislation is especially promising because Mary Anne Franks, an Associate Professor of Law at the University of Miami who wrote the legislative proposal for End Revenge Porn, helped draft the bill. The bipartisan effort would make New York the third state, behind New Jersey and California, to pass a law against revenge porn. Cyber Civil Rights Initiative founder, Dr. Holly Jacobs, has repeatedly stated that revenge porn is a problem that will continue to grow if it is not addressed through appropriate legislation.

Assemblyman Braunstein agreed with that position, stating, “Passage of this legislation would make it clear that New Yorkers will not allow this type of harassment to continue. With the proliferation of cell phones and social networking, this problem will only get worse if we do not take immediate action.” Finding supportive lawmakers is key to ending revenge porn, but changing laws is only half the battle. Our goal is to change public attitudes that lead to victim blaming and allow revenge porn to go unaddressed.

Show your support for this law and help change the public discourse by participating in the discussion on Twitter and Facebook.


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A Story to Tell

The worst part about this situation is being called a slut by people who know me, seeing comments on different sites saying “she’s playing the victim” or “she asked for it by sending the pictures”. Had I been smarter at the time, maybe I would have sent those pictures without my face in them, or maybe I wouldn’t have sent them at all. But I can tell you exactly what I was thinking at the time. I thought about how much I trusted him, how much I cared and loved him, and that I was almost certain I would marry him someday. After ten years of knowing someone, why wouldn’t I trust him?

Call me every name in the book. I will be the first to admit that I made a mistake by trusting a disgusting, hideous, betraying monster, but what he did after I hit send…that was all on him. He chose the path he now has to live with. He deserves everything the justice system gives him. He violated me every day for almost two years. He sent people to find me in my own home.  He made me fearful every day of my life! I became someone who is now constantly looking over her shoulder and checking her rear view mirror to make sure nobody is following her. His actions changed me completely.

The lesson I learned is that not every person is good and not every person is brought up with the same morals. I’ve learned that I shouldn’t trust everyone, but I also refuse to let this turn me into someone who closes off to the world. I’ve decided to take my negativity and turn it into something positive. I decided to tell my story, regardless of the criticism I may receive, with the hope that I will change one person’s life, and if I can do that then I’ve done my job.

Letter From Hollie Toups

*Photo taken Friday, January 18, 2013 Guiseppe Barranco/The Enterprise

*Photo taken Friday, January 18, 2013 Guiseppe Barranco/The Enterprise

Dear Revenge Porn Victim, The moments after you first see your naked photos on the internet for display is a pivotal moment in your life.  It’s a moment when time stands still, and everything, EVERYTHING changes.  In an instant you lose not only your privacy and your confidence, but you are soon made to feel you’ve lost your voice as you cry out for help, and it seems no one’s listening. I don’t have to imagine how helpless you feel, I know how helpless you feel.  I’ve lived it.




You soon become desperate, and are willing to do ANYTHING to have your pictures removed and to feel relief.  You just want it to GO AWAY!  These spineless, predatory cowards lurking in the shadows behind involuntary porn websites know that you will get desperate enough to do anything they tell you.  They offer you relief in return for your payment, or they claim they will remove pictures if you publish your “story” on their site.  They come up with all sort of ways to “help” you.  In reality, nothing they say they are willing to do is to help you, but rather help them.  You’ve already been exploited!  Don’t let them further humiliate you, and use you to their advantage.  Stand up for yourself, take a stand against them and let them know they will not win.  Don’t tell THEM your story; tell a lawyer, tell an investigator, tell Bullyville, tell the public!  Expose them the way they’ve exposed you, and in turn hold them accountable for their actions!  There ARE good people out there willing to help you!  There ARE options!  They can only get away with what we allow them to.  You are the only one who can take away their power, by taking a STAND!


Your friend, Hollie Toups



*Photo taken Friday, January 18, 2013 Guiseppe Barranco/The Enterprise

Victims Speak Up

*Photo taken Friday, January 18, 2013 Guiseppe Barranco/The Enterprise Photo

Hollie Toups and Marianna Taschinger are two of the first victims to speak up and go public with their experiences.  Below is the entire [raw] footage of their interviews with 12 News in Beaumont, TX.   Hollie and Marianna, we are so proud of you.  Thank you for paving the way for other victims to speak up about their experience.